I optimistically wait to not have to write a note as such, but when I have none to turn to, I vent so! Painful it may seem, however, I can't help but wonder..Is it not demeaning to ones self to want to have what others have? To go to the extent of stealing off from what others have thought up? I say not that it is completely my idea, however, can one not exist without having another strip them of what they treasure and hold special or unique to themselves?
If a "friend" is one who turns around and does exactly what you tell them you HATE in a person, what should the said person be considered as? I think an enemy. But who are we to judge who are our enemies and our friends? Our friends may be the ones who possibly WILL BE the ones to turn on us and feed us to the dogs.. Or cows.. Or vultures. Whatever you wish to consider not sentiment damaging, not that I care!
I was told that I turn to a certain someone only when in need or when I'm angry. Who then do I talk to when going through the mentioned? Alas! I cannot bear such rubbish! As for those who persistently copy? Shame! No matter how much I say, it never seems to register. When I hint, I normally mean YOU! What really is a pity is that I am unable to break the miserable, wasted heart of a stupid person who I know shall usurp whatever she can from me and then use it as her own, claiming to know so much of it! What ridiculous fate I have. Can none NOT copy? Can none stay original? Or is it just that every time it is two people with which I form a sort of understanding or alliance, one HAS TO prove themselves worthy and later, obvious while proving, yet so much more intolerable than when this effort of proving I have gotten used to, I must be struck with a blow of realisation of the absolute nothingness but WANT that was sucked out of me?

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